PERSONALLY EXPERIENCED REPETITIONS
suppose you're going to tell me the meals cost $4.10?
- Heidi, 1969
Previously titled "Paranormal Journal Entries"
Daniel W. VanArsdale
3/2010 - 11/2020 - 9/2023
Unsigned Balinese painting purchased at the
Four Points swap meet near Palmdale, California, 1975. Oil on
canvas, 21" x 14".
This is a chronological list of possible
paranormal experiences. Most involve seeming "precognitive"
dreams, or more generally some improbable "repetition" of
events or experiences that challenge rational explanation. Most
of the accounts are from my personal journal which I have kept,
sporadically, since 1969. This journal now comprises 23 volumes.
In the first several years dream accounts predominated, often
followed by interpretations from a psychological perspective.
Later more daily life was recorded, and since 2005 very few entries
of any kind appear. I never expected this writing would be made
public, so some of it is in an abbreviated style, and most of
it was not composed with the care I would now prefer. However,
to provide the best evidence for or against paranormal content,
I have preserved here much original text. Such text is always
dated, and appears in quotes. There may be minor edits but only
if they do not effect evidential value. Deletions may be indicated
by "...". Particular thoroughness is exercised in those
cases (nos. 4, 5, 6, 8, 13) where a dream was written down before
events happened that matched dream content. Many composed
comments are dated "3/2010" when I initiated this web page.
Comments added to quoted original text are placed in square
Several more experiences have been added since 3/2010 and
some of the comments made then have been edited. A few of the
accounts here are not evidence for the paranormal. These are
given for their possible interest, or to make some point. Of
the anticipated events here, none were of any great significance
to myself or others. It is all trivia, as far as I can tell.
In a final section I have identified some recurrent features
of the dreams here, and offered some general comments about
precognition. This subject is not only
an unwelcome guest in the scientific world view; neither does
it fit in comfortably with religious philosophies. When I started recording my dreams long ago I did not believe
that "precognition" was possible. However experiences described
below convinced me otherwise, though whether there is a "knowing"
involved, or just some mysterious and noisy repetition, who
can say? In any case, the world appears to be far more complicated,
more interconnected, than we currently comprehend.
1. Phantom Home 2. Heidi's Dream and Headache
3. Calling Danny 4. Surprise
Permission 5. Out of Control
6. Capadoccia 7.
Special Delivery 8.
Black Uniforms 9. NPR Event 10. Snow Queen 11. Crab or Lobster 12. White Rainbow
13. Superior Hangings
14. Freed Animals 15. Tunnel Flower
16. Quatal Nunashish
17. Buda Pest 18. Piano Tuner 19. Amazing Glass
20. Shadow Shadow 21.
Twin Pipes 22. Two or Five, Whatever 23.
24. Another Aunt 25. Closet Outlets
26. Goodluck Jonathan
27. Twin Problematic
Greetings 28. Dog Stories
29. Southampton Hospital Analysis
1. Phantom Home
1945, age 8. Text: 3/2010. From memory.
From 1943 to 1946 my family lived in a small house on the
summit of the Palos Verdes Hills (southwest of Los Angeles).
The house was adjacent to a Press Wireless receiving station
where my father worked. At this time there were few roads or
structures in the area. We were surrounded by open fields
which were usually planted in lima or garbanzo beans. One day
I walked about a half mile to the south along a dirt road. I
heard music playing, and looked
across the fields, about a mile, to a spot where there was
a ramshackle dwelling abandoned when its Japanese residents were
interned. But instead of seeing this "Jap shack" (as the locals
called them), I saw a well maintained home with a green yard. The
music was coming from this house. I was surprised that a house
could have been built so quickly, but took it as a fact. When I
returned home I told my mother where I had seen this new house.
She said this was impossible, that no construction had taken place
there. The next day I looked for the new house but it was no longer
to be seen. Instead the ramshackle dwelling was back in its place,
surrounded by dry weeds. My brother and I eventually explored
the area. The image to the right is of a small (3.7 inch high)
bottle from Japan that I found in a refuse pile next to the
2. Heidi's Dream and Headache
9/1969, late evening. Oxnard, California. From my
journal, volume #1.
DREAM (Heidi): "She
goes out with a man (sometimes me but changing toward the end)
for an evening date. He drives a car in which the back has
room to sleep in. That back and the whole car are "beige".
They go to a movie which costs $4.10 each. Later, though the
back of the car is available, they go to a motel. They get a room
upstairs. There is a large window out of which she sees a car go
by in the night. This slightly disturbs her and her escort pulls
the drapes." END
In 9/1969 I was between jobs and in the process of moving,
and had been out of state for over a month. So I was looking
forward to an evening out with my girlfriend Heidi, and met
her at her home in Camarillo in the early evening. Almost
immediately she recounted the above dream she had the night before,
expressing surprise that she had remembered it so well. This is the only dream that
Heidi ever reported to me, as I recall.
We drove to Oxnard and had dinner at a Chinese restaurant
that I had eaten at several times. Heidi had never been in this
restaurant before. After dinner we drove to a friend's house
where I was staying alone (he was on vacation). Immediately
after entering the front door, Heidi looked across the living
room at a sliding glass door and a very odd look crossed her
face. A lone car had just passed on a road behind the house,
and Heidi said the interior of the house, and the lights of
the passing car, looked exactly like what she had seen in her
dream. This was the first time she had
ever seen my friend's house. Then she put her fingers to her
right temple and complained of the sudden onset of a migraine
headache, a disorder that often afflicted her. I pulled the drapes closed across the sliding glass
door, thinking she felt observed. I had not taken her comment
about the dream seriously. At this time I did not believe precognition
Later in the evening we drove back to her home in Camarillo.
I had used her car to take her to dinner, instead of my truck.
We parked in front of her house, and she looked back and
expressed surprise at how similar her car looked to the one in
the dream. Her father had taken out the back seat that morning
to move some prunings. The upholstery in the back was beige,
as in the dream, and there was a pillow and blanket that one
could use for sleeping. Before, in telling me the dream the first
time, we had both assumed the car in the dream represented my truck,
which had a small camper. The association with her car had not
occurred to us until she looked back over her shoulder at its
interior. I still did not take her comments about precognition
seriously. But then she asked: "I suppose you're going to
tell me the meals cost $4.10?" For a moment I did not
remember the price of the meals. But soon I realized the meals in fact cost exactly $4.10 (two
combination dinners at $1.95 apiece plus 20 cents tax). I had decided we would go to this restaurant before
told me the dream, and had anticipated that we would order the
combination dinners. I now (2010) do not remember what movie
tickets would have cost in 1969, but at the time it was
obvious that they did not cost $4.10, either singly or for
This $4.10 "coincidence" shocked me, and it was at this
moment that I first began to think that precognition was possible.
And then I remembered that I had considered taking her to a
movie, and also had thought that we would go upstairs to the
second floor in my friend's house. That was where my guest
bedroom was, but Heidi's migraine pain had continued so I had taken
her home early. After I returned to Oxnard I wrote the above dream
account in my journal, and also made loose notes about what
had happened that evening.
Except for some very minor edits, I
have exactly reproduced the brief description of the dream above
as I recorded it in 1969. This event occurred within a week or
two after Sept. 18, 1969 (the date of the previous entry in my
journal). I did not date this entry. The above account of
events subsequent to her telling me the dream is mostly based
on the notes I made at the same time. According to the Social
Security Death Index, Heidi died in 2006.
2011. Lompoc. By searching on Google using "migraine,
paranormal" I discovered that migraine headaches are
often associated with paranormal experiences. I had not previously
3. Calling Danny
November, 1969. West Los Angeles, Pico Blvd. From memory,
I was lying on my back on my bed on a Saturday afternoon,
alone in my apartment. I dozed off a bit, which was rare for
me at that age. I had a dream, or more like a hypnagogic
hallucination, that I heard the phone ring. I picked up the
receiver and an unfamiliar female voice said "Danny?"
I awoke immediately and marveled at the seeming reality
of the experience (the phone was not ringing), and thought about
it. The only people who still called me "Danny" were my mother
and brother. But this was not my mother's voice. Just then the
phone actually did ring. I picked up the receiver and heard,
in an unfamiliar female voice say "Danny?" It turned out to be
a friend of my mother who had known her in Saudi Arabia, and
had just visited her in Florida. My mother had given this
woman my phone number in Los Angeles to call me because she was
coming out here. I was not told to be expecting a call. This is
the only time in my adult life that I have gotten a call from someone,
who was not my mother or brother, who called me "Danny."
I did not record this experience in my journal. But over
the years I have told it to many people and remember it well.
By contrast I have rarely recounted precognitive dreams, which
are more complicated. Often the listener to this will respond
with a similar experience of their own, such as thinking of a
person just before they call.
4. Surprise Permission
January 21-22, 1970. Los Angeles. From journal, volume #2.
"Went to bed using the 'meditation on the throat' technique
to enter the dream state consciously."
DREAM: "I got up & went to bathroom, came back,
my pants dropped on the floor & stayed there. I got in the
bed. The sleeping bag mat was on the floor beside me. I got
off the bed and lay on my back on it. My knees were against my
chest. Either I or someone was holding my legs this way. ...
There was an uneasiness - as if resistance against a sexual
advance - resistance and helplessness. Suddenly I realize I am
hallucinating the experience - not 'dreaming' - or dreaming
and knowing it ..." END
"PS. Afternoon that day - the Yoga position
- told us to fart - the mat - unexplained pain in throat - ...
shoes were taken off."
Later that day, after I had written
down the above preface and dream exactly as above, I went to a scheduled
yoga class at UCLA for the first time. We exercised on mats about
the size of a sleeping bag mat. Well into the class the instructor
had us lie on our backs and bring our knees up to our chests
and hold them that way. He then embarrassed us all (I presume),
by advising us that we should go ahead and "fart" now, that this
position was designed for that. No one in the class farted. At
the same time I noticed an unexplainable pain in my throat. Only
when writing the PS, in the evening of the same day, did I connect
this pain in the throat with the "meditation on the throat"
technique that I had used the previous night. I am aware
that the PS reads as if not written on the same day, but it
was. This was in my second journal volume, and only later did
I strive to be more accurate and complete with my entries.
5. Out of Control
5/22/1971. New Port Richey, Florida. From journal, volume
DREAM: [Much omitted] "Later I am alone
in the back seat of the car in a small local town. ... The
wind is blowing strongly and I notice an approaching whirlwind.
I'm concerned that it may move the car (which is parked next
to a lawn - court house?). It [the whirlwind] centers on the
car and the car moves over the curb and onto the grass. Other
whirlwinds appear and the car moves faster and faster in one
large circle. I think of trying to get into the front seat but
I debate that it may be dangerous to climb over, or that I don't
have time. The car is going at a dangerous speed (40 mph) and
I fear it will hit something." END
COMMENT: " ... But most interesting is the
fact that the manifest content seems based on a scene in a movie
I saw the day
after the dream! (Fathom - Raquel Welch - saw
the last part of this movie). In one scene she was alone in
a light airplane that was spinning down out of control. She struggled
to get into the front seat to control the plane."
The movie Fathom
is available for online viewing on Netflix. I recently watched
it and confirmed that the scene described above was present. I
am fairly certain that I wrote up the dream before I saw
the movie. This was at a time that I usually recorded dreams
upon waking. I think the comment was written a couple days
8/26/1971, 4 AM. New Port Richey, Florida. From journal,
DREAM: "I am a leader - or usually just a working member
- of a construction crew that is erecting a sky-scraper
in an ancient town in the Middle East someplace (Turkey?). The
town's name is 'Selechrine' (pronounced 'Selekreen') and is an
archaeological site of an ancient city (later ascertained to
be early Christian or Byzantine). Its main feature is a
labyrinth of vast tunnels and underground churches. The new
construction is understood to be a hotel for tourists, though there
are virtually no people presently living at the site. ...
"I am on the 15th and top floor of the
uncompleted building; the floors are not in, but others and
myself move about unconcerned on the girders high above the
ground. [Much omitted] Now ... I descend from the building and
enter the tunnels.
"(This phase of the dream is somewhat distinct
and more interesting than above). The tunnels are perhaps 50
feet high - and further down them I will find high vaulted
chambers like underground cathedrals. I think of the
enchantment of them - wonder at their antiquity, but Christian
symbolism makes me think 'they are not so old after all.'
[Much omitted] Now I begin to see vast underground chambers -
all made with stone - their interiors dilapidated and worn -
damp and in shadows - but always the overhead vaults secure. Projecting
stones appear on the floor. I have turned about now and
am returning to the surface. In an underground cathedral on my
left I see a robed man and wonder if these holy places are still
being maintained. Continuing upward, soon a man overtakes me from
behind and talks to me (always slightly behind me and out of sight).
He speaks of his regular long walks in this and other tunnels.
I don't speak for some time - and I wonder if he is a denizen
of these regions - perhaps some occult figure. But now he mentions
he is working on other tourist buildings in the area - a complex
called 'Futurama.' "
3/2010 (Using notes made on 8/26/1971, afternoon)
I recorded this dream and the first comment on it upon
awakening at 4 AM. The above fragments are exact quotes from
that record. At about noon that same day my mother suggested I
look at an issue of Aramco
World magazine (May - June, 1971) that I had not
seen before. She thought I might like to look at some pictures
of birds it contained. Taking it up, I noticed that an old
friend whom I had met in Saudi Arabia in 1954 had an article in
it - The Caves of Cappadocia.
I read it for a while without associating it with the dream, until
I came to words about the underground "imitation vaults" and
pictures of "cave-churches." Cappadocia is a famous Byzantine
archaeological site in Turkey. I thought of the unseen man in
the dream who was working on "Futurama." Skeptical, I wondered
if I could have seen the article before and forgotten about it.
No, I would surely have remembered an article by my friend of
years before. Though we had not maintained contact, I remembered
his name well, and knew that he was employed by Aramco. I documented
this apparent precognition shortly after first seeing the magazine.
I have provided a complete and exact transcript of the recorded
dream made before the fulfilling event, and the comments
made immediately afterward. I still possess the
spiral bound journal book (#3), and keep the issue of Aramco World inside it.
7. Special Delivery
10/1/1971. New Port Richey, Florida. From journal, volume
DREAM: [Much omitted] "Then someone entered my room
- I didn't see him but it was a male voice telling me the 'blimp
racing team' at UCLA had dreamed of me and ... they would be
3/2010 (based on notes of 10/1/1971)
After a bit more of the dream I awoke with the feeling that
the dream was precognitive, but could think of no one from
UCLA that might contact me. Suddenly the door bell rang. It
was a special delivery letter for me from the National Oceanic
and Atmospheric Administration in Boulder, Colorado. I was not
at all expecting to hear from them because they had returned
some employment forms I had submitted several weeks before. My
image of this organization was that they were the people who
released weather balloons (cf. blimps). I had gone to college
at the University of Colorado in Boulder, and also to UCLA. I
had no chance to record this dream before the fulfilling event
occurred, but did so in detail after receiving the special
delivery letter. I have uploaded the complete dream transcript
and original commentary here.
I put the envelope in my journal. It is still there.
I have put a scan of this letter here, front and back. At
the time, the door bell rang just after I woke up and was
pondering the strange dream. You can see on the image of the
back of the envelope the post office time annotation Oct. 1,
1971, 7:30 AM.
8. Black Uniforms
11/25/1971, 3 AM. Live Oak, Florida. From journal, volume
DREAM: "I am living in times of great protest among the
youth. It may be contemporary but there is some implication
it is in the future ...There is to be a great rally in a large
oval stadium. I join crowds headed for the stadium. We cross a
river and enter the stadium. ... We take a position before the
crowds in the stands. I look to our right and see armed troops
dressed in black and standing in ranks." [Much omitted]
11/25/1971, 7:30 PM. Live Oak, Florida.
"Recorded previous dream in the morning.
That afternoon I heard there was going to be a Thanksgiving
Parade in Live Oak [where we were visiting relatives of my
mother]. I had not known of this parade previously. I walked
over to the court house where the band stand was (a decorated
flat bed truck trailer), and situated myself across the street
from it. After a while the parade started up and after a few lead
vehicles the local junior Naval ROTC marched by. They came from
my right, in ranks, with rifles, dressed in black! Compare this
to the dream report: 'I look to our right and see armed troops
dressed in black and standing in ranks.' ... the parade proceeded
in the direction of a football stadium. ... It should be noted that
I saw one of these boys in uniform before the parade but after the dream. However possibly
I saw one in uniform the day before the dream and forgot about
it. Note again (cf. "Cappadocia'')
that the dream itself had a 'time travel' theme."
9. NPR Event
Events: 12/1971. New Port Richey, Florida. From memory,
Sometime during 1971 I had briefly discussed precognitive
dreams with my father, and he did not believe that the
phenomenon was possible. Neither had I until a close friend
had a convincing example a few years before. My father's disbelief
in precognition did not concern me, but his rejection of even
the possibility of consciousness after death seemed to be one
cause of his depressing belief that his life was meaningless.
I had been speculating about the nature of consciousness,
thinking of an individual awareness as manifesting whenever
certain processes took place. Based on these speculations, I
hatched a quirky plan to try to induce my father to have a
precognitive dream, hoping that this might greatly expand his
belief in what was possible. Precognitive dreams had forced me
to recognize that there was much about the world that we did
not know. However I did not expect this to work - for one,
my father did not seem to be interested in his dreams, and I could
not remember him ever recounting one to me. Still, one night, after
he had gone to bed, I went to the beach several blocks away and
spent over an hour going through a procedure that I had devised
based on my speculations about consciousness. This involved repetitive
visualizations attempting to produce in my own brain the essential
process that gave rise to my father's consciousness, and attempting
to make a change therein that might cause a precognitive dream.
I did not tell anyone about this project, nor could anyone have
The next morning my father acted no different than he normally
did, and I assumed that my odd project had no effect on him.
Living in the house next to us was an elderly couple my father
called "Captain and Kitty." In the early afternoon Kitty
called my father and asked him to take her the Captain to the
hospital, something he had done before as I recall. Neither my
mother nor I went with him. Soon after my father returned from
the hospital he said something to us that was close to this.
"Last night I
had a strange dream. I kept hearing a voice over and over saying
that it wanted to give me a number. Finally, figuring it might
be a number I could bet on, I asked what the number was. The
voice said 'one twenty-nine'. I asked what the number meant.
The voice said 'You will find out.' That was the end of the
dream, and I remembered it when I woke up, but did not think
much about it. Later, after I had gotten the Captain into his
hospital room, I turned to Kitty and told her to be sure to
remember the room number so she could find it when she came
to see the Captain the next day. I looked up at the room number
and it was one twenty-nine, the same number in the dream."
As I recall, neither I nor my mother said
much in response, and I never again talked to my parents about
this incident. They have since both passed away. Though
I had written down many dreams in my journal, including some
dreams of others, I never recorded these strange events until
now. For this reason I do not know the date of the incident,
though it likely was in December, 1971.
I acknowledge that the following two objections carry some
(1) Since I did not record the events at the time, considerable
drift or elaboration in important details could have occurred
over the decades. However this was an amazing event to me; I
believe I still remember it clearly after the passage of 40
years. There is a chance that I shifted the key number. At the least,
I remember with total certainty that my father reported a precognitive
dream on the one night that I attempted to induce such. I referred
to this event in my journal (only) as follows,
and below in 1984.
Evening. Oxnard, California. From journal, volume #6. (Prior
"In my very remarkable precognitive experience
involving a deliberate attempt to induce such in my father's
dream, the "coincidence" involved the number 129."
1/29/1994. 11:23 PM. Oxnard, California.
From journal, volume #19. (Prior omitted)
(2) My father could have simply made up the dream after
he returned from the hospital, perhaps in order to please me. That
is still a remarkable coincidence, considering my efforts the prior evening.
But this objection is very unlikely, knowing my father and how unlikely
he would have sought to deceive me in this way, even if done thinking
it was in my best interest. Actually, my father thought that
my interest in precognition was harmful to me (maybe he was right).
"Later I told him of my little
miracle in New Port Richey, and my method of 'making things happen'
by pattern matching."
7/26/1975. Los Angeles (recorded in Oxnard). From journal, volume #3,
6 page stapled insert. Some minor revision.
"Charmaine's Precognitive Imagery."
"Yesterday evening (Friday) I went
to Los Angeles to see Charmaine for the first time in many
months. After dinner we bought tickets for a movie (The Fortune) and first browsed
in a small store near the theater in Westwood. It had a large
stock of note cards - many with children's book illustrations.
I bought three, showed them briefly to Charmaine but it was rather
dark at the time. The next morning she told me how her therapist
was having her create images and act in them. She had mentioned
this briefly before I had bought the cards the day before. In
one of her images she imagined herself on an ice flow, there was
a throne and her therapist had her imagine sitting on it. When
she told me this I realized I had a card of "The Snow Queen" illustrating
a Hans Christian Anderson story. Producing this we noticed it
had a woman sitting on a throne on a block of ice in an ice
flow! In another image she had seen herself as wet, emerging
from the ocean, not knowing which way was home, and getting a
ride in a passing vehicle. These exact elements were present
in the movie we saw. "
" ... I am not sure how much, if
any, of the snow queen's image she told me before I bought the
card - certainly not the ice flow. Until her image was described
I hadn't noticed that the throne was on an ice flow on the card.
Recall that J. W. Dunne (An Experiment with Time) said
day dreams had as much future content as regular dreams."
I seem to have lost the notecard of the Snow Queen. But
a web search suggests it was by Edmund Dulac. This appears above.
There is a good chance that Charmaine had seen this image
before and this influenced the visualizations with her therapist.
And it is no great coincidence if I picked this card independently.
The anticipation of the movie imagery is more difficult to explain.
I did not record this in sufficient detail, and my memory of
it has faded. The movie The Fortune
is available only on VHS, and at a high price. I have not seen
it again to check the above description.
11. Crab or Lobster
8/17/1975. Huntington Beach, California (recorded in Oxnard).
From journal, volume #3, 6 page stapled insert.
"Met a woman, Judy, in Huntington Beach
whom I was matched with in a computer dating service.
She had a 3 year old boy. Shortly before the child was to go
to the baby sitter he began to cry. I went in to his room and
got him to talking about his books. He started telling me
about his favorite - Donald Duck as a detective. On one page
was a picture of 5 or 6 sea animals. He pointed to the picture
and named the creatures. But he called a lobster a crab. His
mother (on my correcting him) said she was the source of the
"Later I was watching television with
his mother. Toward the end of the Cher Show people were dressed
as food. A man had a crab around his neck. Cher said something
very close to: "it should have been a lobster."
It could probably be checked to see if the Cher TV show
in question had been broadcast prior to my meeting Judy and her
son. If so, Judy could have seen it, making her more inclined
to make the misidentification to her child. If not, this
unexplained error may have been precognitively influenced by
the line in the television program she was to see later. Many
precognitive events seem to involve some cerebral dysfunction,
12. White Rainbow
7/8/1984, 9:10 PM. Dream that morning. Oxnard, California.
From journal, volume #5.
DREAM: [First paragraph omitted] "In one scene I am
in a vacant lot next to an old (brick?) building. I see what I
think is a fossil next to the building. Then, in fear, I think
it is a live snake. Then I see it is dead, and all that is
left is its skin over a fine network of bones (more like some
vegetable husk than a vertebrate skeleton). The head of the
snake is thrust inside a hole in the building.
"The scene shifts to a gray hill.
An old man is summoning me. He says 'use me,' and implies he
has much to teach me. He is hardy looking, wizened, but not
educated. I doubt if he has much to teach me, but out of
respect I go to him. He points out to the horizon. Above the
horizon is a large hood of gray clouds. Only a little line of
bright sky shows under the clouds and [above] the horizon.
Here are four white bands of light. They are all that can be seen
of a rainbow. The old man makes a point of the rainbow being double. The second
rainbow comes in more clear now. I wonder why the light is
white, instead of the spectral hues.
"The man says the doubling of the
rainbow, its appearance, is prophetic - he says something like
'you should be very concerned about that.'
"Trying to guess his intent, I say 'you
mean that this means its going to rain a lot?' He says yes,
but I am doubtful."
7/8/1984, 9:15 PM. Oxnard.
COMMENTS: "I told Sharon of these dreams - but wrote them
in the evening. While driving back from a day in Santa
Barbara ..., a little north of Ventura, I looked in the
mirror and saw a strange glow behind - around and under a
heavy but discontinuous blanket of low lying fog. I told Sharon
to look, and as I turned back myself, I noticed a striking similarity
to the 'rainbow' scene of previous night. There was the low gap
of illuminated sky between the horizon and clouds. But the light
of the cars were like the rainbow, and at the moment I looked
back, two cars were clearly visible and their headlights were
positioned right above the horizon, in the strip of light.
"I immediately thought of the dream scene and
reminded Sharon of the dream I told her, she confirming it,
including my puzzlement over the 'white rainbow.'
"Within a second the car lights behind me were
no longer aligned with the horizon.
"It is interesting
that in the dream scene a prophetic character was announced,
as in at least one of my previous dreams and in
my father's '129' dream."
I have faithfully reproduced above my original writing on
this dream; however it does not explain the event adequately.
The precognitive target was entirely a visual experience, not
easily described with words. What I saw on the highway was a
hood of dark but oddly glowing clouds, with a thin band of
brightness between these clouds and the horizon. As I looked,
two cars, in adjacent lanes, appeared in the band above the
horizon with their headlights on. Thus I saw a band of light
with two pairs of much brighter white lights separated by a
gap. The same image was seen the previous night in the dream.
But in the dream a fanciful interpretation was constructed to
explain the scene. The pairs of white lights marked the
beginning and end each of two concentric rainbows. All rainbows
have such concentric pairs, the outer one being weaker or not
visible at all. In some other dreams of mine I believe narrative
content has also been constructed to explain an internal visual
perception, sometimes unlike anything that might be seen in the
13. Superior Hangings
10/7/1984, morning. Oxnard. From journal, volume #6.
DREAM: "(Much forgotten) I am in a hall, and see a row of
bodies hanged by the neck and suspended for public view. They
are the victims of British colonial punishment. Around me are
others of the oppressed culture, but I am white, the same as
the oppressors. I collect myself, and begin to shout about the
cruelty of the British. My sentences seem very eloquent, but
there are long pauses between them. 'Is this a display of
superior British culture?' I say. (Much forgotten). Later I
notice some of the bodies are just small dolls, naked, some held
by string about the legs." END
10/7/1984, evening. Oxnard. Some editing.
COMMENT: "Just watched the Reagan - Mondale debate. Certainly
Mondale got the better of it.
[Paragraph omitted] "I had planned to go to
the Old Time Fiddler's Convention, but instead went to the UCSB
library. Looked at books on political cartoons. ... In one
book, Art and
Politics , Fitzgerald, Greenwood Press, 1973, on page
87, I encountered a cartoon from The Masses, Aug.
1915. It shows two Negroes dead on crosses. The caption is 'In
Georgia: The Southern Gentleman Demonstrates His Superiority.'
Before the crosses stands a southern 'colonel' type. Note that
in the last dream recorded (this morning, and also told to my
wife before leaving) I saw 'victims of punishment,' implicitly
of a different race from myself. I denounced this, saying 'Is
this a display of superior British culture?' ... In the dream
I had the oppressors as 'British' - in the book, on the page
facing page the anti-lynching cartoon, is a picture of the British
lion leaping from England on some fighting foreigners. Another
curiosity: in both cases the artist is Robert Minor. My brother's
first and middle names are 'Minor Robert.' [omissions]
"I had never seen this book before, though
I had half expected to look at political cartoons today. I
would not call this a convincing example of precognition, but
it has that curious mix of multiple coincidence and permutation
that seem to characterize such experiences. And there is no question
of the prior recording of the dream.
"Now I recall why I record dreams in
such detail - one principal reason was to pick up on any
precognitive detail - since minor elements may be involved.
Perhaps 'precognition' is a poor word - it does not seem
sensory or perceived - there is just some structural convergence
of two causally unrelated experiences. Thus both in the dream
and the cartoon, humans are killed and suspended [for public
display], and this act is satirically denounced as claimed superiority.
In the book, the perpetrator jumps over from the next page to
match the dream, and my brother's names are permuted.
"Incidentally, a month or so ago, Sharon
and I put a 'double whammy' (simultaneous) on Reagan, that he
would stumble over his words. It was all in fun, well, half in
fun. Seeing him stumble repeatedly tonight was fun. I got a
good laugh when he said something like 'I will affirm without
hesitation my belief in God' - but in saying this he hesitated!
- on the word 'hesitate,' - saying 'hes ... hesitate.' Check the
tapes if you doubt me. Note the curious doubling over a meaning
and delivery - like some semantic snare. It actually makes me
doubt his sincerity - his belief in God - for the first time. I
have doubts myself, but I don't conceal them."
was recorded in the morning before seeing the book at UCSB. It
appears above in its entirety. After some intervening accounts
of routine events, the comment to the dream was written in the
evening after returning home. I have deleted some unrelated
observations from this. Both in the dream and in the book, one
mocks the pretensions of "superiority" by a culture that
elevates for public display the victims of its cruel punishment.
This in itself is not strongly evidential of precognition. But
seeing these cartoons in this book would have personal significance
to me because of the combination of two familiar names. Likewise
seeing the article on Cappadocia had a personal significance
because I knew the author (see Cappadocia). This
seems to increase the likelihood of being a target of precognition.
Perhaps the transposition of "Minor" and "Robert" even adds to
that likelihood, sparking the transposition of cause and effect
in the waking versus the dreaming domains.
14. Freed Animals
12/11/1984. Oxnard. From journal, volume #6. Comment edited
"Bob, my office mate, mentioned that 'animal liberation'
released some captive animals in Los Angles yesterday. He
mentioned rats and horses - some had herpes. This caused me to
remember a particularly vivid dream fragment from the night
DREAM: "I am in Los Angeles, many previous events
are forgotten. I am walking next to a railroad track (perhaps the
one along Santa Monica Blvd.). Across the track I see large
African mammals, walking in the same direction (east) as I,
parallel to the tracks but always on the other side. I wonder
what they are doing free, and speculate that they may have
been released, or escaped as a result of some previous (but vaguely
remembered) catastrophe, perhaps an earthquake or war.
"I stare up into the sky and see an immense
giraffe, his head and neck towering many times higher than
possible - and I see other herbivores, all much larger than
life. The image of these giant, stately animals moving
gracefully against the sky is very striking."
COMMENT: "The idea of deliberate release was not so clear
in the dream, and could have been a 'back formation' since I
did not record the dream until after hearing of the news of the
release. Still captive animals were unexpectedly free in Los
Angeles - in both dream and reality. At the time I had not
lived in Los Angeles for 17 years. All together this is not
weighty evidence for precognition. Interesting though is the
sudden remembrance when hearing Bob mention the release, and
the particularly vivid dream image."
15. Tunnel Flower
Below is the exact record of what I recorded in my journal
in 1988, based on two telephone calls with friend Jana.
8/6/1988. Carmel, California. Recorded in Oxnard, California.
From journal, volume #10.
"Jana, the day before yesterday, told me of this 'strong
and pleasant and unusual' dream."
DREAM: "She enters a tunnel or cave. But it is not foreboding,
and is lined all about with a single type of flower. This
flower is like a Tiger Lily, but not exactly (black &
white with yellow). She comes out of the tunnel at the walkway
to her attic (where her mother's things were stored). Later her
mother is present in the dream (her mother died last December
or November). There are pleasantries exchanged." END
8/6/1988. By DWV, Oxnard.
COMMENT: "I was very interested in the striking imagery
of a tunnel lined with flowers. I asked Jana to try to obtain
a picture of one of these flowers. Yesterday when I called her
she concluded the conversation with this remarkable incident.
After telling me of the dream and after describing the flower,
the next day she saw her daughter carrying the very same
flower in her home. Here is how she got it. Jana's ex-husband
had a cake for them. He works in a hotel a mile or so north of
Jana's home. Someone had thrown out a corsage. He saw this
flower and thought Jana might like it so taped it onto the cake
box. He thought it was an 'orchid.' He does not habitually give
Jana flowers. This is only about the third or fourth dream Jana
has told me. The flower is not so common - and she described it
to me before it appeared
in her home. She did not tell her ex-husband about the dream.
She described the dream as unusual and vivid, and I took a particular
interest in the flower."
16. Quatal Nunashish
5/3/1989. Ventura County, California. Recorded in Oxnard.
From journal, volume #13.
"Alan has gotten involved with a
congregation of the Native American Church. ... On Saturday he
will return to Pine Mountain for another church ceremony.
"He was introduced to this group, that
lives on a ranch on the Ojai side of the Pine Mountain Inn, by
Paul. ... There is a medicine man, ... who has encouraged Alan
and implied he may be suitable for advanced training. So far
Alan has participated in two sessions in a smoke house with
four or five other men. They beat drums, throw water on hot
rocks, take turns praying (to 'grandfather'), and sing. ...
Certain rituals are observed, but there is little doctrine.
The group emphasizes equality of the races, peace, ecology,
family life, sobriety. The leaders, others, travel much to other
Native American Church groups. They prefer family involvement,
so Alan suggests I come."
5/13/1989, 7:39 PM.
"I followed Alan to Pardner's ranch
this morning. We parked and walked up a footpath past the
ranch house. [Much omitted] Alan went to the Toyota to get two
large bottles of Pepsi he brought for Ken, the medicine man.
We went to his trailer and he invited us in. ... He talks
deliberately, in excellent English. He is a Chippewa, and that
was his native tongue until he was removed to a Catholic
Reformatory School at age six." [Much omitted]
"[Ken] started talking about a
large hole (natural) behind an aged Chumash's home up Quatal
Canyon (Ken aspirates the 't' in 'Quatal'). A spirit comes out
of that hole - it is about 12 feet tall and featureless. It is
harmless, but plays tricks on people. It checks to see how
people are treating the land. Ken said it came by Pardner's
ranch once. It shook their trailer - he thought there was an
"Alan then said he had seen this himself.
He said it was wearing a hat, had a black void for a face, was
12 feet tall and slender and his car was shaken." [omissions]
"I am fascinated by this. Ken placed
little importance on it, maybe he has much better spirits he
deals with. ... I read in California's
Chumash Indians, a Santa Barbara Museum of Natural
History publication [p. 41], of the nunashish - dangerous
creatures inhabiting the lower tier of this three tiered world.
They come up to our Middle World at night, where they are likely
to frighten anyone who should chance to see them."
3/2010. Lompoc, California.
Since Ken's description of this spirit somewhat matched
the traditional nunashish, he could have been influenced by
contact with local Chumash. The "aged Chumash" he referred to
was probably Grandfather Semu, who lived 6 miles up Quatal
Canyon. One of Ken's young cohorts lived with Grandfather
Semu. However the early account by Alan was completely independent
of Chumash legends or sightings. This created much interest
among friends of mine at the time; one from work was eager for
us to camp out in Quatal Canyon. Attributing reality to an entity
based on independent observations of it is the stuff of ghost
lore. Note also the kinship of this entity to European traditions
of headless specters.
Today I talked to Alan on the phone and asked him what he
remembered about the above happenings. He remembers seeing an
entity like Ken described but only in a dream, and the
location was not Quatal Canyon. Instead, he was living in Los
Angeles and the setting of the dream was in the parking lot of
a local market. He did remember his vehicle being shaken in
Quatal Canyon at night, more than once. I now remember him telling
me about this memorable dream many years before, and it being
in Los Angeles. Perhaps back on 5/13/1989 Alan did not elaborate
on how or where he had seen something like the spirit Ken had
just described. So I falsely presumed the sighting was the same
place as the car shaking. This revised version is not as interesting
as the one originally recorded. But note there, that Ken doesn't
actually say he saw the nunashish
either, but both Alan and Ken report unexplained shaking in or
near Quatal Canyon. Here is a link to some photographs
of this beautiful canyon by David Rock.
7/25/2012. Lompoc, California.
According to a recently received email there have been
independent sightings of tall nocturnal entities with
non-reflective surfaces, sometimes wearing what appears to be
a broad brimmed hat - these further south off Highway 33. I
also have learned that both Ken Littlefish (Ken) and his brother
Paul Sky Horse Durant (Paul) have passed away.
17. Buda Pest
5/25/1990, 10:43 PM. Oxnard. From journal, volume #14.
"Last night I woke up at around 3 AM
.... and turned my radio on to KPFK-FM. A taped Alan Watts lecture
was on, and he mentioned a story about a woman who lived in
Buda and her lover who lived in Pest. I have never heard
before (that I can remember) that Budapest was once these two
cities. I even wondered if it were true, thinking that instead
it was a play on words [since Watts often lectured on Buddhism.]
"Driving to work this morning,
listening to KCSU-FM, the announcer introduced a piece by
stating that it was written to celebrate the anniversary of
the merging of Buda and Pest."
If both broadcasts had been selected
to commemorate an anniversary of the merging of Buda and Pest
then the above would not at all have been surprising. However
a Google search reveals that Buda and Pest were merged on 17
November, 1873, not in May. Even so, we are still in the realm
of coincidence. However I very rarely listen to the radio in
the middle of the night. Thus one might ask: why did I happen
to wake up at 3 AM and turn on my radio? Was it my way of
producing an anticipation of an unexpected statement I was to
hear within a few hours?
18. Piano Tuner
7/18/1992, 8:22 AM. Oxnard. From journal, volume #17.
"Dreamed about a piano tuning last
night. A child wanted to play while the tuner worked. I told
the child he couldn't do that, that it broke the tuner's
"Then this morning, just now, a
piece finally ended on KPFK-FM. The host said he had a couple
calls, and that one was from a piano tuner. This was the first
sentence I heard this morning - the music had been playing before."
8:51 AM. "I'm getting more into this 'piano tuner'
event. True, I didn't write the dream down first. And I
suppose there is a chance I could have made it up. But that
seems extremely unlikely. Once reminded of the dream (by the
announcer's mention of a piano tuner) I immediately recalled
it in some detail. That is typical of dream recall. In the
dream I recall feeling that I may have been too supervisory
with the child - that I was over estimating how much the piano
tuner had to concentrate. But in reality obviously you couldn't
tune while someone was banging on the keys."
19. Amazing Glass
12/13/1992, 10:33 AM. Oxnard. From journal, volume #18.
"Forgot to mention - there was
an unusual 'Mary episode' in Oxnard about a week ago. An image
of the virgin appeared as dirt on a window. People began to come.
Eventually there were hundreds. At one point some asshole
fired a couple rounds, wounding two people. After that the
apartment manager had glaziers replace the window. While
carrying it away the image was destroyed by the hands of the
faithful, who wanted to receive benefit by touching the image.
I suppose if Mary were to appear in the flesh she would be
torn limb to limb. A personal note to this unusual event - it
happened at 5361 Perkins Rd - my old apartment building, in fact
directly below my #5 apartment. Duane had told me it was near where
I lived, so I went there [and confirmed the location]. There were
no more people, no image. But the front lawn and shrubbery were
completely trampled and destroyed. When I first moved there, there
was an elderly Scottish (?) woman living in that apartment. She
used to play an organ-choir version of Amazing Grace over and
There is very little paranormal aspect
to this story, but it is interesting and allegedly appeared in
the Los Angeles Times,
though I never read a press account myself. If anyone tracks
this down I would love to get a copy. There could be errors in
my second hand account above. There was a rumor that the woman
who lived in the apartment had a premonition a year previous
that Mary would manifest to her. Both the elderly woman and
myself had moved away years before. I must have heard Amazing
Grace coming from below me a hundred times.
Before finding the above account
in my journal books recently, I had remembered and told this
story differently. I had the music by bagpipes, the image of
the Virgin appearing a full month before I was told about it,
and I had completely forgotten about the shooting victims.
This shows how the memory can change details, shift things in
time, or delete important features altogether. If precognition
is a fact, we should not be surprised if it treats future
content with the same disrespect.
Jan. 9, 2014
Using newspaperarchive.com I found reports on this incident
in the Oxnard Press Courier, dates Dec. 8, 10, 11 and
12, 1992. The above 1992 description is fairly accurate. The image
was first seen on Monday, Dec. 7. The shooting occurred
two days later when an estimated 300 people had gathered to
view the image. A man and his wife were injured in the foot
and ankle. A controversy arose when the glazier said he would
sell the image to the highest bidder. It was reported he had
an offer of $200. The image had been all but erased as
described above. Eventually the property manager put it in storage.
In the last article on the incident a neighbor said "the apparition
was not a miracle, but instead an accumulation of dirt on glue
left from a cardboard cutout of the Virgin Mary that was on the
window last year."
While attempting to printout these articles I tried to go
to page 14 in the Press Courier, which had a continuation
of its Dec. 11 page-one story on the event. The software for
newspaperarchive.com is awkward, and I wound up on page 12
instead. An article appeared there at the top of the page titled:
"Imports stomp Dutch clogs." That very night, while visiting
some friends here in Lompoc, a woman brought out some wooden
shoes she had bought. I had never seen wooden shoes before, and
was surprised at how thick they were. Nor can I ever remember
seeing any other newspaper article about wooden shoes.
20. Shadow Shadow.
8/26/1996, 7:47 PM. Oxnard, From journal, volume #21.
"As usual I was walking with Shadow
behind Oxnard College this morning at around 7:05 AM. I was
walking on a dirt road; Shadow was not visible, having entered
the rows of potted Christmas trees to my left. I was in a
state of reverie, ... and thinking of what I had written to W.
H. I saw Shadow come out from between a couple potted trees,
trot ahead of me, and turn right where the road made a 'T'
ahead of me about 20 feet. A few seconds later I saw Shadow
come out from between the same two pots! My mind raced, as I
tried to imagine how she could have circled around so fast. Quickly
I realized it was impossible, plus I was beginning to have a strange
feeling about the situation. I thought to myself: 'Oh my God,
you suppose she is going to do the exact same thing I just saw?'
And so in suspense I watched her trot ahead of me just the same,
and then she turned right just as before! It was shocking and amazing.
I at once thought it would be hard to remember the incident -
so told myself to remember it. And I went up to Shadow, and noticed
she wasn't panting, which she would be if she had circled around
(but there was not time anyway)."
Unlike most of the events here, I told a few people about
this the same day, even though it is one of the least believable.
What was most striking for me was what I experienced in the
few seconds immediately after Shadow came out from between the
same two potted Christmas trees the second time. My dog not
only repeated the course I had seen previously, but did so
with the exact same motions - such motions being something a dog
owner gets very keen on, especially with an athletic hound like
Shadow. My best explanation is that in the state of contemplation
I was in, somehow I saw what was to happen several seconds before
it actually happened. Above left is a picture of myself and Shadow
in Oxnard around 1993. To the right is a scan from my journal
showing the layout of the area I was in and the course Shadow
21. Twin Pipes
5/22/1999. Lompoc, California. From journal, volume #23.
"Went to the Nipomo swap meet today;
... I was looking around in one of the sheds and saw a cheap
recorder in its original package. Taped next to it ... was
another recorder of a different color. This triggered a memory
of a dream from that very morning in which I saw a curious
panpipe; two pipes attached, but they are of different colors.
I play them and marvelous Arabic sounding music is produced. I
wonder how I learned to do this."
When a waking event triggers the memory of a dream from
the previous night, caution requires that we consider if the
dream narrative in its entirety could have been constructed
instantaneously. But many dreams are remembered in this
fashion. It is simpler to presume these are actual memories of
dreams, rather than some instantaneous phenomenon that produces
identical results. Further, content may be dreamlike, as in the
above where it seems an unlikely panpipe is posited to explain
the waking experience of a taped together pair of cylindrical
instruments of differing colors.
22. Two or Five,
Aug. 10, 2010. Exactly as written in Journal #24, except
"X" for an actual name and "[my step grandson]" added.
Entered Oct. 25, 2015.
"Now here is something weird. On Sunday X called
and was desperate for money (as always). X told me his
brother promised him $500 but he had not gotten it yet. But a
few days before he had called and told me his brother had
promised to send him $200 but he had not gotten it yet. I confronted
him on the discrepancy and he became annoyed and said: 'Two
hundred or five hundred, whatever.' He hung up on me. He called
back twice to apologize.
Now that is not weird, however the next day
(yesterday) I got a call from a young man who called me 'Grandpa'.
I said 'is this Michael?' He said yes and then told me he was
on a fishing trip to Niagara Falls. He and a friend had met
two Canadians and they all got stopped by Canadian police. The
Canadians had drugs and they were all arrested. The cops told
him he would get off, but he needed $2,000 bail. Later,
perhaps inadvertently, he changed this to $5,000 bail, which he
wanted me to send to him. I was already suspicious, since he did
not sound like Michael. I asked why he did not call his mother.
He said that she did not answer and he only had one call. I told
him he did not sound like Michael and challenged him to tell me
the name of my dog that he had liked so much ("Lobo"). He said
"Spot", then another name. I told him he was not Michael
and hung up. I called Michael [my step grandson]
- he was still in Santa Barbara.
Only until that night did I realize this.
(1) X called me probably wanting to borrow $200, and a few days
later called hoping to borrow $500. (2) The next day someone
tried to con me out of $2,000, later changing it to $5,000."
11/23/2020. I have edited this entry slightly to prevent
identification of X.
7/13/2011. Lompoc, California. From journal ,
volume #24. Edited 1/27/2012.
A couple days ago I was making lunch and watching the TV
program Disappeared, a true-crime drama about people
who have disappeared, usually as a victim of crime. In the TV
story, the narrator said something like "they would soon get a
letter that would set off alarms" and just then my smoke alarm
went off! I had pushed down some toast a second time and forgotten
about it. My smoke alarm goes off at most once or twice a year.
24. Another Aunt
7/13/2011. Lompoc, California. From journal, volume
#24. Rewritten 1/27/2012.
A couple weeks ago Y called me in a very delusional state
and said her estranged son had come to see her from San Diego
and had married Y's older sister. This was a very bizarre fantasy:
her son has not talked to his mother for over 10 years, has been married
for many years, and his aunt is probably 30 years older than him.
A couple days later I called Y to again suggest this was a
delusion. By then she had regained clarity and was embarrassed to talk about
her prior delusion. That night I saw the excellent film Another
Year. In this, the female friend of a couple falls for
their son - much younger than her. The son does not encourage
her and does not call her as she had asked. Eventually he
marries a woman close to his own age. The older woman is crushed,
and talks to the young man's mother. She finally comprehends her
folly when the mother compares her to being like an aunt
to her son.
11/23/2020. I have edited this entry slightly to prevent identification
25. Closet Outlets
1/27/2012. Lompoc, California. From journal, volume
#24. Edited 1/27/2012.
The following dream was not recorded
before the fulfilling event occurred, but it was very well
remembered since it was very disturbing and I woke up and got
out of bed.
DREAM: I have to follow someone into a maze of rooms. Alone,
I go into a room and from there look about for another door to
enter. Seeing none, I enter a closet where some clothes are
hanging. I turn to my right and see a small closed door. It is
only about 4 or 5 feet high. I start to open this door but
then become fearful that this will lead me into a series of
restricted spaces in which I may become trapped. My anxiety increases
and I decide not to open the door. I awake. END
Later next day I decided to do a chore I had been putting
off for weeks. My internet DSL service had slowed way down. I
had called service at my ISP and their last suggestion was that
I try using a different telephone wall jack. I did not think
this was the problem but hooked some extra line I had bought
to a jack in my kitchen. Surprisingly, this gave me adequate
download speed, but with further checking I discovered the
problem was not a defective wall jack, but the connecting cable
I was using. The old (defective) cable led from my bedroom through
a hole in the wall in my closet that my ex-wife had made to an
adjacent room where my computers are located. In replacing this
I got the plug of the new cable stuck in the hole in the wall,
and could not push it through nor retrieve it without possibly
damaging the fragile plug. Then I realized the similarity to the
dream - (1) I enter a closet looking for an outlet, (2) I find
it to my right, (3) concern that it is too small halts my activity.
Note that I never imagined that the problem was with the line,
and that I might have to replace that. Instead I had been advised
to have Verizon check the signal, and then to suspect that either
my modem, router, or the wall jack was the problem. Thus having
to find and utilize an opening in the closet wall was never
6/22/2012. Lompoc, California. Entered 6/23/2012.
Yesterday I saw a TV news item about a political crisis
in Nigeria. I was amused to learn that the current President of
Nigeria is named "Goodluck Jonathan." I thought of how the
culture in Nigeria must differ from ours that such a name
would be selected for a child, and wondered if the name itself
had benefited Mr. Jonathan's political career. I planned to
tell a friend about the name, but forgot.
That night I was reading items in the Encyclopedia of
Graffiti (Reisner & Wechsler, 1974). It was late, so
I decided to turn out the light and go to sleep. First, I
turned over the book and read the last of a list of graffiti
on the back of the book, on the dust cover. This was the item:
Fortunatus you sweet little darling you great fornicator,
someone who knows you writes this. (Pompeii, 79 A.D.)
An online Latin dictionary verifies that one of the meanings
of "Fortunatus" is "lucky."
9/4/2013. Lompoc, California. Entered 9/7/2013.
(1) At about 7:40 PM on Sept. 4, 2013
I heard a radio interview that revealed that: An American
had asked an Asian man "How are you?" and the Asian man
judged the inquiry to be more personal than it actually
(2) At about the same time: An Asian man sent an email
from my computer (remotely) to an American asking "How are
you?" and the American judged the inquiry to be more
personal than it actually was.
For details of this "synchronicity" see:
Twin Problematic Greetings.
28. Dog Stories
Sept. 22, 2017. Lompoc, California.
Zeno. Oh how I loved that dog.
I have withdrawn an entry ("Zeno and the Light", 10/9/2015)
about possible telekinesis (Zeno making a light come on) since
the light came on again the same way recently, even though
Zeno died on July 1, 2016. To replace it, below are two
dog stories, the second having a ghost aspect.
I once had a black female
Akida-Visla mix dog. This was Shadow, who brightened my life
for 16 years (see Shadow Shadow
above). She loved to play tug of war with
me, using the cut off leg of an old pair of jeans. She always
played hard, as if this were some antelope leg that her life depended
on. One day I was very sick, sitting on the couch miserably. Shadow
came to me with the pant leg, exactly as if inviting me to play
the tug game. I grabbed it and pulled. It came out of her mouth
easily - she was letting me win.
About eight years ago I had two dogs,
Lobo and the above mentioned Shadow. Both were getting old, and
Shadow in particular was over 17 years old and on her last
legs. However, suddenly, Lobo had to be put down. Afterwards,
Shadow would stare down at the empty place on the living room
rug where Lobo used to lay. A week after Lobo died I found
Shadow lying dead on a walkway in the side yard.
A few days later I called my son
in Utah about the deaths of Lobo and Shadow. Both had been his
dogs originally. At that time my son was married to a Chinese
woman who, though well educated, believed in ghosts. My son
told me that recently she had heard a scratching sound at the
front door. She opened the door, but nothing was there. Then,
a week later, she experienced the same thing. The first time
it was about a day after the death of Lobo, the second time
a day after the death of Shadow. She reported this before
she heard that either dog had died. That was the only time she
reported hearing any unexplained sounds.
4/8/2017. Lompoc, California.
Last night I got together with a group of people that meet
weekly to share a Netflix film. I talked briefly with the man
seated next to me, Richard, as I had several times before. On
the subject of the war years, I told Richard that my family
had driven across the country in 1943 from New York to California.
He asked me where in New York and I told him Freeport. He then
said that he too had lived on Long Island. I told him I was born
The movie we watched later was the 2016 documentary Harry
and Snowball, about Harry de Leyer and his champion
jumping horse Snowball. About two thirds through the movie
there was a scene showing a sign for Southampton Hospital.
This is within the range of coincidence. However both my
mention of my birthplace, and even more the scene in the
movie, had little motivation. There was an equestrian event in
Southampton in which Snowball competed, and I suppose showing
the hospital sign was the filmmaker's way of identifying this
location. I was born in this hospital in 1937.
Months after I added the "Southampton Hospital" event to
this list, I was searching Google on my name and discovered that
there is a doctor named Daniel Vanarsdale (no relation) that
currently practices at Southampton Hospital. I added it to the
information already presented here but did not make it clear
that initially just the odd repetition of my birthplace in the
movie had seemed sufficient to be noted on this page. I have
also edited the above 4/9/2017 comment.
First, I generalize the concept of
"precognition" so that it applies to all the possible examples
above. Also, this avoids saying more than we know, and may
provide some hints for where to look for new genres of the paranormal.
By event I mean anything experienced by a person that can
be effectively described. For example: a scene in a dream
or movie, a day dream, a real world happening, a thought or intent,
a fantasy or delusion, something spoken or read, sense perceptions,
natural phenomena, presence at a time and place, etc. Events may
influence other events, in part or whole, directly or
indirectly as by intermediate events. We say two events manifest
a "hyper-coincidence" if:
1. The descriptions
of the two events have one or more similarities that are extremely
unlikely to occur by chance.
2. There is no known way that one event could have
influenced the similar content of the other, or that the
similar content of both was influenced by some third event.
For a typical precognitive experience the two events
of the hyper-coincidence are ordered in time: first a pre-event
such as a scene in a dream, and second a post-event
such as a worldly happening which is recognized to eerily
match the pre-event. Often a pre-event in a dream will be remembered
only when the post-event is experienced. A post-event that depends
on an act of volition by the dreamer should not be considered
a hyper-coincidence, since even if the dream has been forgotten,
it could influence the post-event. Precognition is necessarily
statistical in nature - there can never be absolute certainty
that events have not unfolded as they have due to chance. But
when there is more than one anticipation in the same dream, the
close-to-zero probabilities of each repetition multiply in assessing
the probability that the dream as a whole manifested a
hyper-coincidence. This produces the near certainty of precognition.
Examples of such multiple anticipations appear above in Cappadocia, Heidi's Dream and Headache, NPR Event and, less convincingly, in Surprise Permission, White Rainbow, and Southampton Hospital.
In assessing the probability of chance causation an important
consideration is the interval of time between the pre-event
and the post-event. Thus if you dream of a scene that eventually
you see in a movie, chance causation is much more likely if years
have gone by and in the interval you have seen a hundred other
movies. Generally, this involves sample sizes. Suppose you dream
that your next door neighbor knocks on your door dressed in a
clown suit and asks to borrow some cinnamon. The chance of that
actually happening the next day are likely millions to one, definitely
a hyper-coincidence. But suppose it did happen, but you had no
such dream. If then you could search some online file of a million
dreams, finding one to match this post-event would not be so remarkable.
No such data base exists now, but caution is necessary in evaluating
online attempts to register "prophetic" dreams. Similarly, published
evidence for precognition of famous catastrophes is
unconvincing. Further, to make a better story, we are told that
the disaster itself was foreseen. But first learning of the disaster seems
more likely to be the anticipated post-event, not the unseen disaster
itself. To claim the contrary should require supplying details
of the disaster before they are made public. If someone dreams
of an odd scene and then sees it in a movie, I doubt if anyone
would claim that this was precognition of the making of the movie,
rather than precognition of seeing the movie.
All but perhaps one of the above precognitive dreams were
fulfilled the very day after the dream. This is not typical of
examples in the literature, and may be a personal trait. But
all of the post-events above are trivial; they do not involve
life changing possibilities, nor events reported by the press.
If trivial post-events occur much later than a day or so, by
that time the pre-event is likely to be forgotten and the
hyper-coincidence will not be recognized.
The Buda Pest experience above
falls within the range of coincidence, but it illustrates the
possibility that both events of a hyper-coincidence may be
nearly identical real world experiences. If fleeting dream
images can anticipate worldly experiences, why should we on
principle reject the possibility that worldly events themselves
can anticipate other worldly events? Or in the curious Crab or Lobster experience, a mother's
misidentification anticipates a worldly experience. Coincidence
is a possibility here also, but this example was worth giving to
suggest the great variety of hyper-coincidences that may exist.
Many published examples of "precognition" imply a person
experiences a subsequent event, but the phenomenon seems much
more general, and in none of the above examples would any one
have been able to make a prediction. Instead the post-event
comes as a surprise, a partial and unexpected repetition, often
with transpositions and other variation, not as a sought for
and orderly revelation. Claims of foreknowledge of a personal
or public disaster receive much attention, and these often involve
predictions or saving actions. So predictive capacity should
not be ruled out, but such claims are inherently subject to the
sample size problem discussed above. For example, a very common
paper chain letter of prior decades warned that a recipient discarded
the letter in disbelief, and died nine days later. That is certainly
a true claim! In fact, likely this happened over 35,000 times!
This follows simply from the vast circulation of the chain letter
and basic death statistics (see Chain
Letter Evolution - calculation).
Often, during some phase in a person's life, essentially
the same dream will be experienced on many nights. Such recurrent dreams may also be
collective. For example,
probably millions of people have dreamed that they were back
in school and experiencing frustrating difficulties. It is a
bit puzzling that people may have this dream even before they
learn that others have had the same dream. Other recurrent dreams
may be strictly personal, or at least presumed to be so. For example,
for many years I had dreams in which three men with questionable
reputations appeared. Other details of these dreams were totally
different, so these three scoundrels rated only as a recurrent
In the Special Delivery
dream I was told that the blimp racers "would be contacting me,"
and after I woke up I had the feeling that the dream was
precognitive. In the Cappadocia
dream, an unseen man tells me he is building "Futurama." In my
father's dream in NPR Event, after giving him a
number, a disembodied voice tells him he "will find out" what it
means. In the White Rainbow dream, a old man
tells me that an image is "prophetic." In all these
dreams there is content that declares the dream to be precognitive;
and in two cases, a particular dream element is specified that
is to manifest in the waking world. In three of these dreams the
declaration of precognition is by a person, unseen except in the
White Rainbow dream. The personifications involved could be interpreted
to mean that the dreamer is in contact with some metaphysical
being that is staging the precognition. Alternatively, these persons,
seen or unseen that make the declaration, may be dream rationalizations,
just as in a dream of flying one can imagine it is taking place
on a world with little gravity. Whether causative or explanatory,
such declarations rank as a recurrent feature of my
precognitive dreams. Personification, in dreams and elsewhere,
provides an agency explanation for unusual experiences. But explaining
dream content as the act of a spirit may be like explaining illness
as caused by witchcraft.
It is a surprising fact that three or four of the above
twelve precognitive dreams have post-events which (1) relate
to personal facts about the dreamer, and (2) would be considered
coincidences by themselves, even in the absence of a dream. In
the Superior Hangings dream,
my attention to the post-event is guaranteed by the first and
last names of an artist, these names having family significance.
Similarly, the post-event of the Cappadocia
dream involved a magazine article that was written by an old
friend of mine. In the NPR Event event, the
actual number of a hospital room matched my birth date.
Finally, in the Special Delivery
event, the target experience is receipt of an unexpected letter
addressed to me. However this receipt is not, by itself, what
we would consider a "coincidence." Like the above pre-event declarations,
these post-event personal coincidences rank as a recurrent feature
in my precognitive dreams. Such recurrences may hint at what is
going on in precognition, and if they involve the post-event, they
may help in designing more revealing experiments.
Three examples of transposition occur in the experiences
above (Crab or Lobster, Superior Hangings, Twin Problematic Greetings).
This could simply be the result of noise in the transition between
two events, just as transposition errors often occur in manual
data recording. But it is possible that transposition has
a causative role in some paranormal experiences - such as by
attracting awareness to events linked by this surprise relationship.
Less specific forms of a surprise post-event appear in other
items above. In the Calling Danny
hypnagogic experience, the name "Danny" was a personal
surprise both in the post-event and the pre-event day dream,
since the voice on the phone was not that of my mother in both
cases. But this was not in itself a coincidence. It would have
been if the call were a wrong number. In the Surprise Permission dream, the
post-event was odd and embarrassing, but not related to me personally.
The Buda Pest oddity is completely impersonal.
Likewise the Twin Pipes and White Rainbow dreams both have post-event
visual experiences that are odd but neither personal nor involving
a coincidence. In the second of Two
Coincidences, an extremely unlikely pre-event anticipates
an unremarkable post-event. So my events involved with precognition
definitely have some regularities, though note a pre-event being
somewhat unusual is probably an inherent necessity since otherwise
a matching post-event may not be so improbable.
Just one convincing precognitive dream, communicated to
witnesses prior to the post-event, undermines the orderly view
of the world that has taken millennia to develop. Even quantum
mechanics, with its possibility of interconnectedness and
simultaneous influence, has trouble digesting precognition.
Material replicators, such as animal bodies, benefit from the
relative permanence of physical structures and the universality
of the physical laws that they are subject to. By contrast, coherent
experiences, should any have self-developed periodic manifestation,
are easily disrupted or destroyed by the vagaries of mentation
and powerful environmental influences. But experiences can be
created with so little energy and in such great variety, that it
seems likely some have planted influences that favor their subsequent
repetition. Perhaps it is a fundamental principle of awareness
that some "events" noisily sustain or replicate themselves if
there is an opportunity.
It is difficult to explain why certain events might be perpetuated in
some form and others not. But it is also difficult to explain why we
may long recall certain things that have little significance, like a
bad joke heard in childhood, and totally forget other experiences of
more import. That most events seem transitory and singular may be due
to a pervasive
interference with repetition, just as omnipresent friction in
our earthly environment obscures our awareness of Newton's first
law: that objects retain uniform motion unless acted upon by a
force. Rotations and lengthy orbital periodicities are abundant in
space. In the complex realm of human experience, repetitions may have
evolved using disguise or seemingly diverse manifestations.
The new subtitle of this web page ("I
suppose you are going to tell me ...") was spoken by a dear friend who has passed on. This sentence changed
my view of reality (see Heidi's
Dream and Headache above). Previously the subtitle was a quote from Through
the Looking Glass by Lewis Carrol: "It's a poor sort
of memory that only works backwards," spoken by the White
Queen. A recent web search revealed that famous scholars, including
Carl Jung writing on "synchronicity", have featured this quote.
So I replaced it. But Carrol's creativity, his relating precognition
to memory, deserve mention.
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